trust|| why is it so hard.

For those of you who even read this blog it has ended up as a place for me to vent about my life and just become a bit more sane by getting my feelings out on words. Something has been bugging me lately and I really just can't seem to shake it. Trust. Something so fragile and at the same time also so so powerful. I have no trust in anyone anymore though. It has been something that I have realized the more I grow up and it honestly kills me more than anything because I want to be able to trust the people that I care about but how can you let those people in when letting people in means that you are vulnerable and they know more about you than you might have ever wanted. And then they can use that against you. It makes me sick to honestly think about some of the things that people have done to me when they have my trust and what is even worse is that I continue to care about them. I don't understand myself sometimes. Why do we let the people that have hurt us or misused our trust to remain in our beautiful worlds? It confuses me too, don't worry. I think that I guess we are afraid to not only lose the trust that we have in someone but to also lose that person as a whole. Kind of messed up if you think about it. Would you rather be hurt or alone? I guess for me I would rather be hurt.